answer me not (1)

should i humbly praise

or merely mesmerize

the heavy life you named as sacrifice?

from the  dark cold womb

where you kept me custody

to the deep open wound

carved on my entire body

                         ... i try to understand

                         ... my apology, i let you down

you brought me to this garden

in hope i could find my own Eden

yet you saw me as a burden

deserved to be abandoned

         somehow, the rain preached you not to,

         for that was certainly forbidden

                          ... i try to understand

                          ... my apology, i bring you down

had you stayed there, you would've seen

how this thing called burden

struggled to find the path hidden

in that garden…

wondered how  the warmth of your arms

had changed hopes into ropes

 ... i wished it would've turned to gold

                         ... my apology, i fail to comprehend

should i humbly praise

or merely mesmerize

the heavy life you named as sacrifice?

                             

@ made in poem